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15/08/2025
Hello!
It's been a minute since i last put a blog post up, last one i talked about hitting a "give up" stage due to how much stuff seems to suck all the time directly to me and indirectly through the actions of others.
I took a step back and re-evaluated what i want from this site and myself in general and reflected alot upon what i wanna do next. Ideally it may sound stupid, but i just want to be happy and comfortable being "me". For years i feel like i've had to keep quiet and ashamed to myself and as the world has progressed in alot of ways i feel like i wanna make the push to feel comfortable and confident in myself again.
With that being said, i've been trying to update the site the reflect that more. I want to be in my little bubble doing the things i enjoy and if people somehow turn up in my life in a way where i can be happy surrounded by friends who actually like me for me and not for freebies and or mooching support, i'll take that as a win. I find having an identity on the internet nowadays seems to be this contesting thing where a person has to put on this "internet mask" to make ends meat and get on with people but i always have found that type of fakeness the worst way to handle things.
So here's the gist, i'm gonna try and be myself, be more comfortable and possitve dealing with people and if i don't vibe with certain people i just will keep a respectable distance. I'm gonna focus on my art and streams and this website specifically and am currently working on updating the front page to be cuter i hope and more of a blurb and links page for that modern site look and feel, short and sweet i hope.
If anyone wants to connect/reconnect or just leave a message you can still find me on Discord @ Xiichu, please be aware that i only really check it on my phone when it's urgent and the weekends most times, i treat it more like a penpal style messaging program now. Responses will be delayed but i would hope people will understand that social media isn't my thing. I've been burnt too many times by individuals and groups that i don't rely on socials too much, i hold no grudge cos it's not worth the energy anymore to get fixated on shite like that, i'm 32 as of typing this and i don't give a fuck anymore haha, my happiness means more than some petty squables and drama on what should be a communial love for one another enjoying each others company, i feel discord really lost that charm as people made groups overtime, makes me miss teamspeak.
I find myself most active on Twitter most times and that's mainly just to post art and retweet art from mutuals that i respect. If you would like to support me there, you are welcome to do so, most likely i won't follow back as i like my current comfortable setup on that site but the support for my art and projects in future would be greatly appreciated.
Anyways, i've rambled enough for this blog post, it's late for me and i just wanted to get some thoughts out here. Hopefully it made enough sense and wasn't too vague. My next post will be more focused on progressing forward with things, i think. c:
Please look after yourselves and enjoy the little and big things in your life that make you happy, there's no point letting negativity drag you down but if it does i hope you can find the time to relax and refocus on the things that you appreciate in life and keep going!